I feel terrible that I tend to treat my daughter like a leper with her MRSA because I am so terrified of the disease and it is so contagious and she doesn’t take any precautions to protects others. I believe she would take more precaution if her mind weren’t constantly clouded with heroin. She came out to the car as we were about to leave the other day and caught Jeremy and me sterilizing our hands before heading home. She asked for a ride to the local free food place on our way out of town and we took her but she was sad and subdued on the ride. She would be more upset if she saw us when we get home. We strip leaving the clothes we wore inside out and sterilize ourselves before coming into contact with anyone else.
Her disease is progressing oddly but the fact that she does drugs will make her case non text book according to most doctors I talk to, but then again, all cases I hear of start differently and progress differently. She started with four golf ball sized boils on her back side and then started getting a lot more all over her torso that were about half that size. The last three big ones have been on her underarm, hip, and ladies part, (OUCH!) and now she is getting tiny ones everywhere that are still just as painful but very hard to spot. That makes it harder for me to avoid them as she doesn’t cover them like she should. In fact she touches them and touches me without worry because she believes that only the puss is contagious when actually even touching her skin can pass it on as the nose and skin become colonized with the bacterium. It was a nightmare to be around her when she had a bad cold recently! I still hug her and she kisses me good bye every time I visit and I just can’t stop these things. I want to hold her and just cry and cry for my baby!
Her father called me last night and asked me if I would sign with him to have her committed for Heroin addiction and not caring for a deadly disease and I said Sure if he can set it up. If he manages this it will make her feel very betrayed but could save her life and all of ours as well. I have tried and found it not easy to commit a person these days but if he has found a way to do it I will help him to save her. I have hoped that as she is about to be homeless after Wednesday this week that she will commit herself. She is aware that her life is a mess and no life at all. She lives with her drug dealer boyfriend , who also has MRSA, and he is so weak and ill and strung out he can hardly do anything anymore and all they do besides get high is fight. I took her to the ER a few days ago for a broken finger from one of their fights and she talked a lot about getting out of it all. I just pray that one way or another , she does get out, get treated for heroin addiction and finally have her MRSA properly treated before it is totally hopeless to do so if it isn’t already. I greatly appreciate all of the comments and notes I receive from everyone wishing us well in this war. I pray for an end soon! Thank you all!